February 10, 2004
My Last Blogger Entry

  Cause and effect is a funny thing. One of my main reasons for switching over to this blogging format was so that my entries could be more easily read, one after another, as a coherent string of thought. Now that I've done that, I find myself less likely to update. The problem is I see the latest entry, and I feel required to continue that thought before I talk about anything else.

Friday, for instance, I went to my internship. I BARTed into SF, marveled at the beauty that is Downtown, gawked at the tall buildings, patronized an independent cafe, met the people at RAN, received my first assignment, and slogged my way through piles and piles of papers whilst sitting at a desk overlooking many potted plants, one dog, and a cardboard cutout of Legolas. I composed a lovely blog entry in my head, complete with a long dissertation on the appeal of the metropolis, as outlined in Pattern 10 of A Pattern Language. Problem was, I didn't have the time to sit down and actually write it until Sunday morning. By then the moment was gone. And so I've put off updating, because I had written all this buildup to my first day at RAN, and I didn't want to just leave that hanging. But on the other hand, I didn't want to go through the trouble of rehashing the whole day. It was a lot of fun, but I already had other things on my mind.

The end result is this: I don't think Blogger is for me. I enjoy reading other people's journal in blog format, but I can't really write that way. I was hoping that I would adopt the habit of just jumping onto Blogger and making quick updates, but I haven't really done that.

Part of the experience of blogging, for me, is capturing a moment in my life, and turning it into something tangible, giving it a name. My memories become documents. And, like the memories, each of those documents should be discrete.

Blogger is a nice service, and I've had fun fiddling with the template html. But the format is stifling my creativity (even if the most creative thing I usually do is change my background and give the entry a name--that is still something). My website is running the risk of becoming boring and that possibility is more than I can cope with.

~Lisa~ 2/10/2004 08:22:26 PM